Last Christmas Break

I only have a few months before I enter Clerkship (that is if I pass third year). I am a bit excited and scared at the same time. Seeing how Batch 2012 spent their own breaks on duty in different hospitals, it made me realize that this will be my second to the last real vacation before I fully enter the field of medicine. Three years of ups and downs, excitements and disappointments, I would like to say this will soon be my world. A world where not all will measure up to your expectations, a world where frustration is just around the corner, a world where getting an MD matters more than your ideals in life.

Yes, this is the sad reality I have to face.

Coming from the Ateneo College, we were always taught how idealism will help us "go beyond borders." One way of keeping this slowly rusting idealism is visiting my old college campus. Despite the many new faces, the atmosphere has not changed a bit. It reminded me of the days where I discovered how far you can achieve as a person, as a student. I am grateful for the support and belief my professors, colleagues and administrators have shown -- for they helped me believe in myself. Last week, I have decided to pay a visit to Fr. Bulatao, together with my friends. Despite of old age, his spirit is very much vibrant and felt. He endlessly talked about how his life was great -- how he lived his life to the fullest. This was his message to us -- "go beyond borders." He encouraged us to study abroad, enrich ourselves with knowledge, culture and languages. I remembered how I was full of courage to do so. Yet, for some reason, medical school is struggling to suck out that courage.

In becoming a doctor, one has to fully embrace its culture and people. Doctors do not appear as friendly to their patients as compared to their apprentices. Expect loads of criticisms, superiority issues, perfectionists, know-it-all's and a whole lot more. It may sound daunting to become a doctor but I believe this culture will soon change. As I go through medicine, I have realized why many end up lost, despite their degrees. They have forgotten the reason, their passion for choosing such a field. I have met some who do, but their tight schedules prevent them from sharing the light among those who are in the dark. Leadership is very much needed in the medical profession. True leadership.

This Christmas season, I would like to be grateful for having realized such an important detail -- my passion. As much as I can, I would try to hold on to this and to let it guide me as I will soon be a clerk.

One thing to think about, what is your BECAUSE in life?